Getting it together

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The First TIME

I looked at the date of my last entry and thought OMG had it been that long...getting my daughter ready for college has taken more time than I realize. Well, it finally happened I was at home cleaning out my closet out minding my own business. I was really in a comfortable state of mind; I didn't have wig on, I was wearing shorts and a tank, listening to my music just a cleaning and my husband was laying on the closet floor talking to me. The door bell rang we gave the look of who could that be... well it turned out to be his sister he went down stairs I kept cleaning. I really wanted to get my closet finished I'd been working on it for about a week now. Well, none the less his sister wanted me I asked was she by herself and proceeded down the stairs (keep in mind I did not have a wig on and no one other than my family has seen me with out some type of head covering). I get to the bottom of he stairs and Kim's (his sister) eye got wide she said Oh my God You shaved your head she smiled and said it looks good why don't you wear it. I told her I'm working it. A few minutes later the doorbell rang again before I could go cover my head my head husbands bestfriend walked in before the night was over we had about for more unexpected guest. This was completely unexpected but much needed now I don't feel the need to cover my head when people come to the house. I'm not ready to wear it in public yet but like i said I'm working on it....Oh I almost forgot my husband friend told my husband while they were outside man your wife cut her hair she looks good I know that was a good thing for him too because just as i have to be ready so does he (my husband)

Shaving Cream & Razors

OH NO NEVER AGAIN!!!! The first time I shaved my head (July 12th) my husband did it for me with the clippers. I kept telling him closer, closer get as clean as you can he did a really good job. When he was finished he step away from me with a smile on his face I thought he was laughing, immediately panic set in I said "what do I have a funny shaped head" he laughed then and said "nooooo baby, I just like it I think it looks cute" any who, with all that said the very next day you could see growth I told myself I was going to do it myself next time because I cant have him shaving my head every other day. Well the time came and I thought i'd go to CVS get some nair that should be easy well it didn't work quite like I thought it would the hair came out in patches (that did not look to good) i'm thinking I did not leave it on long enough ok try some thing else I decided to use a razor because I was still determined to learn how tho do this myself none the less I lather my head with my husbands shaving cream and proceeded to shave, besides the one nick it came out great .........but LORD please have mercy on my soul I did not know it was going to itch so bad I'm bout to loose mind this is worse than the time i gave myself a bikini wax.......

The Three B's

Well.....I finally took the plunge and started a blog. I'm really not sure how this blogging things works, but i'm sure i'll figure it out. I constantly searched the web for females with alapecia, females with hair lose or balding females never did I have any luck. I just could not believe I was the only female having this problem I could not find a support group anywhere that's when I decided that I would start a blog and maybe other women would find me.

The journey to becoming the bald girl was a long one and some what a hard decision to make. The hair loss started at age 24 with a spot the size of a quarter, and now at 36 the whole crown is completely clean. One doctor called it alapecia and another called it female pattern baldness. all a could picture was a balding old man, well just darn wonderful is what I thought. After 12 years, two hair clubs and many, many wigs I decided to go ahead and shave what was left of my hair. I figured a bald head had to look better than just having hair on the sides and in the back.

I always thought I had a little style so I was not sure how going completely bald would effect my self esteem or my personal style, turns out I like it I still have to get use to it, but for the most part I like it. Complete baldness has given me a new freedom , though I have not found the courage to were it in the street yet, I know I will. It just feels good not covering my hair at home and OMG a bald head as given me new meaning to a HOT SHOWER!!!!!!